Y’all don’t know how much I miss her, if y’all knew me for a very long time, it’s hard for me to go through this??, It was this fucking one dead ass day she had a fucking stroke, I swear to god. We been in her hospital everyday praying and saying “she can’t go not this time” I wanted to graduate before she died be successful??. Get married have her grandchildren. Everything but that fucking day messed me up. She had a stroke ?? she couldn’t go through it. As she said “if anything happened to me make sure I’ll be there always watching you guys everywhere always be successful it’s okay I’ll still be here no matter what!” ?? but that fucking day had to mess it up! SHE HAD A STROKE. It really messed up my personality. “Always be strong for me” I thought my grandma would fight it. We can’t have her go through so much pain. We had to pull the plug she had to go she can’t live like this. My dad been having stomach problems and I’m scared to death he is gonna die soon and I don’t want that ??I didn’t meet my grandpa he died in 2000, he never met any of his grandchildren. But my grandma always said “if I ever get hurt or be in hella pain, just pull the plug” my grandma stayed alone for 16 years without him. She always missed him. When we had a after party after the funeral we took a photo and she was there in the photo?? smiling she was happy with her husband. She’s in a better place. At least when I was born she heard me felt me and held me. She was there when I was born she was there when I was growing up she’s been in my life for only 9 years!
