Jackie Vargas
Last Wed 01-13-2016…..My best friend, my better half, most of all the other LOVE OF MY LIFE…..I am trully sadden that he will no longer be around for me to confide in. He and I was together in a realationship for 12 years. In those years we manage to go through alot of trails and tribulations that life manage to delt us. We, no matter what stuck it out regardless. But unfortunately in order for us to keep what respect and love we had for one another we were faced with the facts that friends n sometimes lovers, would be the best plutonic. And from our decisions and understanding, that grew more into A LOVING AND DEVOTIONAL RELATIONSHIP WE EVER HAD IN THE 12 YEARS IN A COMMITTED ONE. Let I TRULLY BELEIVE is my TRUE SOULMATE. It hurts so much to realize that he is really gone. Actually at this moment as I write this post part of me is still in denial. You know when I arrived at the hospital that sad night to arrive at the news that the better half of me is gone and when we were at the funeral home to make arrangements, people keeps telling me to go see him, in his room where he passed, and again at the funeral home. I kept saying , “NO” “NO” “NO”….niether do they know its my way of staying between denial and reality that he is still among us and only it gives me more time to deal with this delima till the day of the real realization of comfronting his frailed body in a casket, that that will be the day it will be embedded hard in my mind that he is trully gone, but not forgotten….Manolet, I WILL FOREVER KEEP YOU A LIVE, AND TRULLY VERY SPECIAL AND DEAR TO MY HEART REGARDLESS. THOUGH IT HURTS TO LOSE YOU BUT YOU HAVE BEEN THROUGH SO MUCH PAIN AND HARDSHIPS WITH YOUR AILMENTS, I SHOULD KNOW I BEEN THERE TO HELP YOU THROUGH THE TUFF TIMES, I KNOW GOD HAS DECIDED THAT IT WAS TIME TO RESCUE YOU AND FOR YOU TO BE AT PEACE. I KNOW YOUR WORRIES AND CONCERNS FOR YOUR STRUGGLING AND FIGHT WAS TO STAY ALIVE WAS CONCERNING MOMMIES SITUATION…I MAY NOT CALL AND SPEAK AS OFTEN AS I DO WITH HER BUT I WILL TRY MY BEST TO VISIT, CALL HER MORE AND AS OFTEN AS I CAN. I CANT DO MUCH BUT FOR YOU I WILL TRY SOME WAY TO ALWAYS STAY IN TOUCH WITH HER. K….ALAM MO NAMAN MASKI PAANO LET MAHAL KO RIN SI MOMMIE.. DAHIL SIYA ANG NAGING SECOND NANAY KO EVER SINCE THE PASSING OF MY OWN NANAY…..SO DONT WORRY ABOUT HER OK JUST MAG PAHINGA KA NA AND REST IN PEACE…..I WONT SAY GOODBYE, DADDY BUT TILL WE MEET AGAIN…..MAHAL NA MAHAL KITA MANOLET, AND I WILL MISS YOU SO VERY MUCH!!!