May Server P. Miranda
Dearest Ma, Happy Mother's Day 2023! I still got you fresh flowers, yes I know, you always say, "For what? It dies anyway". I agree it does but flowers bloom to symbolize beauty, peace, love, and harmony. This is why I still do it to show I care. It's been years now since your passing. It took me this long to come here and share my own words about how deep my sorrow feels to lose a mother. It's harder to not be able to call you, or bring your favorite snacks and watch TV together like we used to. I also miss us talking about how you grew up in the old days, playing with rabbits and dancing with your friends, laughing and having fun. I also remember you have a lot of photo albums we would look at, and you'd tell me who they are or what you remember about a photo. I also never forgot how you told me the best job you ever did was in the Mailroom, sorting mail and delivering them to employees, it made you happy. A lot of what we go through in life becomes memories we hold dear, as you have.
Now as a mother, on my own, with all the joys and difficulties you've gone through, I am now on the same path. I will never forget our last words to each other, I asked you one night, "What is it you want of me?" and you looked down thinking, then you said, "Be happy May, life is short and it will not be here tomorrow (you spoke of you on this last part), I knew you meant "Go on with your life, make the best of it". It's harder now for me to contemplate, as I got divorced late in life. Yet, when I get sad, I still go back to your last words to remind me, of whatever time left, to find your happiness. As for the "Happy Birthday May" voicemail you left me in your last year of life, I still have it. As I reach my 66th Birthday on May 19, you will be with me Ma, as I play that voicemail, you said, "May its Mother. I want to wish you a Happy Birthday, Mother loves you very much, and I want you to have a good day, okay May? Thank you, Ma, for always being there and remembering me every year!!! Prayers to you in Heaven... Love May
